We just don’t like it. For some reason we are radically prejudiced against pain and suffering, and THAT is a big problem for us.
I often hit a kind of humming groove, and every single time this happens, I congratulate myself and say “We’ve really got it figured out now. I’ve joined the ranks of all of those cool and fantastic (and possibly superior) beings that DO have this thing under control and making it sing.” And then, at some point in the future, at another moment in time, I’m coming undone. Maybe it’s the people around me, or my finances roll around, or someone says “no” to me, or I screw something up, and I’m right back into the depression and loathing that coats everything like thick glue. My heart rate increases in this space and I am at high alert.
And so it goes, over and over and over. Even with years of practice, I am vulnerable to this mental trap, and that’s the real good news. There’s not any place or time where it’s all perfect ad infinitum. We’re just here at this moment, and it will always be interesting if we train in noticing the details more than daydreaming about what it means.